I'm so stoked that I'm in Education. I still don't have my letter (it may be here tomorrow?) but I double checked and emailed back asking if it's official, and if there is a spot for me, definitely, and she said yes.

I admit, the idea of getting rid of my debt and focusing on taking a couple sweet trips and things like that definitely had its appeal. But hey, I said a couple blogs back, if I get into Education I'm sticking to it. It's divine.

I have gone through a thought process over the past few months that just keeps expanding and expanding. It's neat. Mostly through my class on utopian literature, I began to think about knowledge and whether it is a good or a bad thing. I've struggled with the Genesis text, the Garden of Eden context, good and evil. Asked some questions that have been asked for a long time, like why Adam and Eve would be placed in a situation where God must have known they would eventually sin, and yet somehow expect them not to, and curse them when they do. Seems odd. Then, with utopian thoughts in mind, I schemed about how or if a utopia could be achieved on Earth. My conclusion: no way, not by our hands. Is there a point in trying? Yes. Is it achievable? Depends on your definition of utopia. A perfect utopia, of course not, because as humans, we're imperfect. An imperfect utopia, a better way of life for all, a system of government that would allow equality to all (all work for the same wage, for example), somehow solving the tension between freedom and organization. Then I started reading a book my Dad gave me to read a long time ago, at the beginning of last semester, but I never got time to read it. Simply Christian, it's called, about how everything seems to point to humanity yearning for heaven on Earth, or at least the few chapters I've read thus far. I also started watching Planet Earth where I get to see the beautiful, glorious, complex world, and all the weird and majestic animals within it. I get to hear how much of the world is covered in ice, in desert, in ocean. Laughably, I have been re-reading some of the Twilight series. Vampires. I also watch Vampire Diaries, and have a crush on Damon Salvatore (http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/img-thing?.out=jpg&size=l&tid=11461165).

On the drive back from Radville, then, I started thinking of all these things together. I thought of David Hume, I think it was, who tried to prove an existence of God by some complex thought that is something like: because we can imagine perfection, it must exist. The counterargument: Because we can imagine a superhero, a vampire, a ten foot ant, it is possible. So then I started thinking. Maybe it is possible? We only use like ten percent of our brains or something, right? (Note that I have zero sources for this blog. This is no term paper, and I am probably wrong on all my statistics) At work the other day some girls started talking about church, spirituality, spirits, demons (not damons), and ghosts. Do you believe they exist? They asked each other. The entire of religion, or because I don't enjoy that word or the connotations that follow, the concept of God at all, do you believe that exists? He exists? You can't prove anything about a ghost. You can't prove anything about God. I am on the verge of saying/thinking/suggesting, that perhaps it all has the possibility of "existing", or has existed, or is perhaps pointing to something more. Why do humans think of perfection at all, for instance? I think Hume has a point. I'm sure at one point, someone said "imagine what it would be like to fly, like a bird." Now we can. We've invented airplanes. Maybe with all the cloning gene spicing biology that intelligence is working up to, we'll eventually have a centaur. Utopian thought, as a whole, stemmed from Christian thought. Paradise. Heaven. The book I'm reading points toward these drives for perfection, with all skepticism that stems from the lack of achievement, are just... in all of us. Because one day, when the "New Earth", the same Earth that we're all living on but is changed, renewed, perfected, for all of us to dwell on for eternity, we'll have all of that. Maybe we'll all be rock hard gods and goddess vampire looking creatures then. Maybe not. If you're spiritual at all, you must believe in spirits: angels, demons, something. Maybe aliens do exist. Have existed. Will exist? Maybe the superior intelligence and imagination that marks all of us so human, so different from the animals, who don't seem to dwell or have time to dwell on the purpose of life, how one should live it, and the afterlife or the attainment of perfection, which we all use ten percent two percent or whatever it is of our brains to use, some of us more genius than others, all just hints at really good things that we will may have access to in the future: the ability to run really fast, ultimate goodness, talking to animals, exploring the universe, and all of the bad things like bad blood sucking vampires, ghosts that scare people, bad aliens, are bad things that we could also encounter?

This blog is too long, I know I've probably lost all of you by now anyway. I don't know if this makes any sense at all, actually. My main point is, the more I think about it, investigate it, dwell on it, the more every single thing seems to point to the fact that some day there will be something more, something better. That there is a God, no matter how confusing He might be. That we are fragile, and are not at our full capabilities. Just sayin'. It seems odd that we would think, or imagine things like God, perfection, vampires, if there is no way they could exist. I'm sure at some point in the future, or maybe back in dinosaur days, there will be or was a ten foot ant crawling around. Of course God is a little more significant a topic than a centaur, or a ten foot ant or a vampire or an alien or ghosts, but why would we have the capability of thinking, of imagining these things, if the possibility of their existence wasn't possible? What would be the point?